2. What major benefit does Randy derive from this relationship?

To this question, I drew the card of Judgement.

This is a card that perhaps requires a little explanation. Pictured on the card is an angel, who is blowing a trumpet to summon the dead from their graves. Biblically speaking, it’s a picture of “The Last Judgement,” where some are saved, and some are lost.

In the Tarot, the meaning of the card is a bit more metaphorical than the picture might imply. The appearance of Judgement here represents anything that serves as a “wake up call” for us – anything that calls us to a new way of life, or that awakens us from an otherwise-slumbering state. One author suggests its meaning as “the summons to a new life.” Implied in the card are the ideas of re-birth, of any kind of spiritual or emotional “resurrection.” It represents making a fresh start, personal transformation, and awakening to possibilities.

Given the context of my specific question, it seems that the relationship itself presented you with a whole new way of living, being and relating. It “awakened” possibilities and potentialities for you which may have not been previously present. All of which may have seemed inspirational at one time, and could still prod you to try and hold on to what you had.